Good news!!! Mr J & Ms S gonna have a baby soon! They are really excited about it. When I got the news, I was indeed exhilarated!
I love babies. They depict purity, clarity, and innocence. There's always a big bang of emotions within me when I see one. It pleases me with just watching them smile for I know the rare real smiles.
True emotions. Unmixed. No doubts. So untouched.
I could still remember the first newborn I held in my arms. She was just in this big big world 20 minutes before I held her. It was in year 2001. Her name is Chloe, Jo's darling girl. I just so stunned for the 5 minutes that I held her. So soft, so pure, so fragile. And I quickly handed her back to the nurse, I wanted to make sure she's safe.
Also, I've made up my mind to get the Panasonic FX9. I'll get it tomorrow. Its really cool and after reading the reviews, I really believe in the camera and can't wait to get it. I'll take some nice pictures and share them here :)
Otherwise, my mind is still super hyper, trying very hard to have good concentration on things... need real real efforts!!! Even to get a good night sleep!
Trying to phantom my current emotions. And I think I am really feeling lost. Where my passions gone? Except for the excitement of the new camera, new baby and nam, I do not look forward to anything else :(
I think my work stresses is getting into me. I'll work hard tomorrow to clean up my tasks at work, then I'll do some reorganisation of my thoughts.
Till then.
"Happiness lies in the joy of others"
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Moodz : After a long long time...
"After a long long time..." I thought its a part of lyrics of some songs... but yet I can't figure it out which.
Anyway, its been a long time since I last wrote. I have no inspirations. I have not some quiet moments. I have only feeling of rushness, actually not much feelings at all because the past weeks have been crazy and I can't feel the very minute of it.
I hate to have this kind of feelings you know. Like at this particular moment, I just felt my life of past 2 weeks was just washed down through a path in a heavy storm... Didn't get to feel the morning sun shinning down my black hair, hearing the birds chirping away...
Mornings of these couple of days, I was just clacking away in my heels to hail a quick impatient taxi - and unknowingly, I would sigh of relieved that I've got onto a cabby who's driving is as the madness of my emotions. Rush rush rush... quick quick quick...
In fact I was in HK last whole week but it did not left me with much impressions except for lotsa points to follow up jotted in my notes.
This moment, I was just going to put a DOT - a fullstop. From this moment, again, I hope I'll remember to savour every moment, like how one savour the delicate dishes of a french cuisine. Bon!
Ah yes, I bought 2 books at the airport again :
- Sokudo (The hot new puzzle craze)
- Blink by Malcolm Gladwell
Be back soon!
Anyway, its been a long time since I last wrote. I have no inspirations. I have not some quiet moments. I have only feeling of rushness, actually not much feelings at all because the past weeks have been crazy and I can't feel the very minute of it.
I hate to have this kind of feelings you know. Like at this particular moment, I just felt my life of past 2 weeks was just washed down through a path in a heavy storm... Didn't get to feel the morning sun shinning down my black hair, hearing the birds chirping away...
Mornings of these couple of days, I was just clacking away in my heels to hail a quick impatient taxi - and unknowingly, I would sigh of relieved that I've got onto a cabby who's driving is as the madness of my emotions. Rush rush rush... quick quick quick...
In fact I was in HK last whole week but it did not left me with much impressions except for lotsa points to follow up jotted in my notes.
This moment, I was just going to put a DOT - a fullstop. From this moment, again, I hope I'll remember to savour every moment, like how one savour the delicate dishes of a french cuisine. Bon!
Ah yes, I bought 2 books at the airport again :
- Sokudo (The hot new puzzle craze)
- Blink by Malcolm Gladwell
Be back soon!
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Health : Thyroid
Thyroid - I don't really know much about it except that it causes the glands at our neck area to swell a little.
This morning, I have just had my health review and I am suspected to have thyroid.
So I did a little reading... and this is one of the interesting article I found :
Left-Handedness and Ambidexterity
Left-handedness tends to be more common among men than women, while autoimmune thyroid disease tends to happen more in women. Thus if you try to find out the frequency of any degree of left-handedness among thyroid patients the answer you get depends on whether you ask men or women with thyroid trouble about hand preference.
In an informal research survey, Doctors Lawrence Wood and David Cooper asked 74 men with Graves' or Hashimoto's disease about this and found that 12 were pure left handers, 40 ambidextrous, and only 22 pure right handers. Thus, 70 percent of these men had some degree of left-handedness. In contrast, among 24 individuals with other types of thyroid problems such, as benign and cancerous nodules, only two were left-handed and four ambidextrous for a total of 25%; 75% being right-handed.
So if you or someone in your family are completely or partially left-handed, this may be a clue that there is also a tendency to autoimmune problems including Graves' and Hashimoto's diseases on that side of the family.
I am a lefty, so does it mean I have higher tendency?
Sounds a little scary isn't it. I'll have to see another doctor this afternoon.
But I'll be oke, just a little discomfort perhaps... please bear with me oke?!
** She lets a little quiet sigh...
This morning, I have just had my health review and I am suspected to have thyroid.
So I did a little reading... and this is one of the interesting article I found :
Left-Handedness and Ambidexterity
Left-handedness tends to be more common among men than women, while autoimmune thyroid disease tends to happen more in women. Thus if you try to find out the frequency of any degree of left-handedness among thyroid patients the answer you get depends on whether you ask men or women with thyroid trouble about hand preference.
In an informal research survey, Doctors Lawrence Wood and David Cooper asked 74 men with Graves' or Hashimoto's disease about this and found that 12 were pure left handers, 40 ambidextrous, and only 22 pure right handers. Thus, 70 percent of these men had some degree of left-handedness. In contrast, among 24 individuals with other types of thyroid problems such, as benign and cancerous nodules, only two were left-handed and four ambidextrous for a total of 25%; 75% being right-handed.
So if you or someone in your family are completely or partially left-handed, this may be a clue that there is also a tendency to autoimmune problems including Graves' and Hashimoto's diseases on that side of the family.
I am a lefty, so does it mean I have higher tendency?
Sounds a little scary isn't it. I'll have to see another doctor this afternoon.
But I'll be oke, just a little discomfort perhaps... please bear with me oke?!
** She lets a little quiet sigh...
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Tickles : I love Malaysia!
Got this from a pamplet I picked up at e CuRVe! I thought it was funny and entertaining!
10 Reasons Why We Love MaLaYSia!!!
1 - Night Life in Malaysia is extraordinary - almost everything you can do during the day time, you can do it at night too! Malaysia Boleh!!!
2 - If you are hungry and there is no cutlery, eating with your hands is acceptable here. *Hoorah*
3 - One of the cheapest places on Earth where you buy five pairs of shoes a month and still strut around in them as if there were from Prada.
4 - The variety of national costumes we have can certainly inspire any fashion designer.
5 - Its lovely how we take every opportunity to celebrate all festivals and celebrations. So muhibah!!!
6 - Feeling hungry at some ungodly hour? Pop by to a 24-hour mamak and get a roti canai or teh tarik.
7 - Old Colonial houses, an interesting signboard or a peeling shop house with 1940s typography or a big old tree in the middle of nowhere is just charming.
8 - Food such as kuih-muihs, nasi lemak, bak kut teh, roti canais - the list will just go on and on and on... *yummm*
9 - Its wonderful that we have so many public holidays. FYI: Selangor has the most holidays in the whole country!
10 - Who needs Greek myths when we have our own Cerita Lagendas abounding with curses, the supernatural and etc.
10 Reasons Why We Love MaLaYSia!!!
1 - Night Life in Malaysia is extraordinary - almost everything you can do during the day time, you can do it at night too! Malaysia Boleh!!!
2 - If you are hungry and there is no cutlery, eating with your hands is acceptable here. *Hoorah*
3 - One of the cheapest places on Earth where you buy five pairs of shoes a month and still strut around in them as if there were from Prada.
4 - The variety of national costumes we have can certainly inspire any fashion designer.
5 - Its lovely how we take every opportunity to celebrate all festivals and celebrations. So muhibah!!!
6 - Feeling hungry at some ungodly hour? Pop by to a 24-hour mamak and get a roti canai or teh tarik.
7 - Old Colonial houses, an interesting signboard or a peeling shop house with 1940s typography or a big old tree in the middle of nowhere is just charming.
8 - Food such as kuih-muihs, nasi lemak, bak kut teh, roti canais - the list will just go on and on and on... *yummm*
9 - Its wonderful that we have so many public holidays. FYI: Selangor has the most holidays in the whole country!
10 - Who needs Greek myths when we have our own Cerita Lagendas abounding with curses, the supernatural and etc.
Friday, August 05, 2005
Philopz : Optimism
(Actually I wrote this sometime ago, wanted to send it to all my good friends but I think somehow I didn't really complete my write up. Anyway, here it goes... )
I really would like to share this insight that I gained, in fact that struck the cord in me when I was reading the book – One by One, The World Is Yours To Change, written by Daisaku Ikeda.
Particularly this sentence quoted by Dr. Seligman – Optimism is hope. It is not the absence of suffering. It is not always being happy and fulfilled. It is the conviction that though one may fail or have a painful experience somewhere, sometime, one can take action to change things.
I should give an introduction about Dr. Seligman.
Martin Seligman (1942 - ), US – is known for pioneering work in the promotion of “positive psychology” including the study of positive emotion, positive character traits and positive institutions.
He is a Fox Leadership Professor of Psychology in the Departments of Psychology at the University of Pennsylvania and a best-selling author of optimism and the creation of happiness. He was president of the American Psychological Association for 1996.
I could have just copied the entire chapter to share but I would like to share it with a gist of my personal view as well.
I believe how we can contribute to humanity and the most powerful tool we can share and teach another person is how to be happy. Not making happiness for others.
Its like the analogy that often been quoted, teaching one to fish instead of fishing for others.
It has always been my passion to do – to teach another the secret to be happy. My contribution to humanity.
But I have not been able to grasp the whole concept within myself and put them in words.
From this article, it struck me. Perfect in its words.
“Psychological revolution”. In Gakkai, we called it “Human Revolution”.
It is indeed important to have awareness, realization within ourselves. Often, the unconscious dialogue we conduct within ourselves when we face obstacles , since we do not notice it, becomes habitual.
Dr. Seligman suggested that to be aware of our inner-thoughts, one way is that to write down what we are thinking to ourselves when we are in a situation. Put in positive words for ourselves.
We should practice optimistic thinking, inscribing optimistic phrases in our minds.
For me, I believe, apart from writing (I still do write diaries!), our practise is a method to engrain positive habits of mind. Once we have acquired the skill of being optimistic, we never lose it.
** She sits back and smile. Its a wonderful day today, isn't it? Tell it to her if it isn't.
I really would like to share this insight that I gained, in fact that struck the cord in me when I was reading the book – One by One, The World Is Yours To Change, written by Daisaku Ikeda.
Particularly this sentence quoted by Dr. Seligman – Optimism is hope. It is not the absence of suffering. It is not always being happy and fulfilled. It is the conviction that though one may fail or have a painful experience somewhere, sometime, one can take action to change things.
I should give an introduction about Dr. Seligman.
Martin Seligman (1942 - ), US – is known for pioneering work in the promotion of “positive psychology” including the study of positive emotion, positive character traits and positive institutions.
He is a Fox Leadership Professor of Psychology in the Departments of Psychology at the University of Pennsylvania and a best-selling author of optimism and the creation of happiness. He was president of the American Psychological Association for 1996.
I could have just copied the entire chapter to share but I would like to share it with a gist of my personal view as well.
I believe how we can contribute to humanity and the most powerful tool we can share and teach another person is how to be happy. Not making happiness for others.
Its like the analogy that often been quoted, teaching one to fish instead of fishing for others.
It has always been my passion to do – to teach another the secret to be happy. My contribution to humanity.
But I have not been able to grasp the whole concept within myself and put them in words.
From this article, it struck me. Perfect in its words.
“Psychological revolution”. In Gakkai, we called it “Human Revolution”.
It is indeed important to have awareness, realization within ourselves. Often, the unconscious dialogue we conduct within ourselves when we face obstacles , since we do not notice it, becomes habitual.
Dr. Seligman suggested that to be aware of our inner-thoughts, one way is that to write down what we are thinking to ourselves when we are in a situation. Put in positive words for ourselves.
We should practice optimistic thinking, inscribing optimistic phrases in our minds.
For me, I believe, apart from writing (I still do write diaries!), our practise is a method to engrain positive habits of mind. Once we have acquired the skill of being optimistic, we never lose it.
** She sits back and smile. Its a wonderful day today, isn't it? Tell it to her if it isn't.
exhilaration
I am in a good mood! :)
Work does give me a kind of satisfaction afterall. I love my job. Isn't that great!
Was pretty stressed up last week due to a very tight schedule and it was also a new experimental project. But on this Tuesday, we proved it works! :) YahOoo!
Also, today I've realised that there is actually people reading my blog. And giving nice comments which is very very encouraging.
I've not been writing much lately. Wasn't really sure if my blog is heading the way I would like it to. But having some people reading it (perhaps only a few) is a good start and hopefully we'll be able to have a two-way sharings where we can learn from each other via this blog.
No one is exactly perfect, but I count myself lucky to have a very positive outlook on things in life and I would like to share this with people. I have read this somewhere that being positive is not a born with feature ;) It's like a habit. We can nurture ourselves to be this way. Thus we'll all be happier people. And thus we'll achieve our objectives for a peaceful world.
But of course, I do go thru from what I call the winter seasons (depressive modes). Most important is how we stand up again after we fall again and again. That's life!
I'll run the excerpt from the book I read shortly. It'll be good to know that we are in control of our lives.
Live life to the fullest! Definately!
Work does give me a kind of satisfaction afterall. I love my job. Isn't that great!
Was pretty stressed up last week due to a very tight schedule and it was also a new experimental project. But on this Tuesday, we proved it works! :) YahOoo!
Also, today I've realised that there is actually people reading my blog. And giving nice comments which is very very encouraging.
I've not been writing much lately. Wasn't really sure if my blog is heading the way I would like it to. But having some people reading it (perhaps only a few) is a good start and hopefully we'll be able to have a two-way sharings where we can learn from each other via this blog.
No one is exactly perfect, but I count myself lucky to have a very positive outlook on things in life and I would like to share this with people. I have read this somewhere that being positive is not a born with feature ;) It's like a habit. We can nurture ourselves to be this way. Thus we'll all be happier people. And thus we'll achieve our objectives for a peaceful world.
But of course, I do go thru from what I call the winter seasons (depressive modes). Most important is how we stand up again after we fall again and again. That's life!
I'll run the excerpt from the book I read shortly. It'll be good to know that we are in control of our lives.
Live life to the fullest! Definately!
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